12/4/08

My father passed away on December 4, 2008. My mom found him at home. He suffered a heart attack. It was a very sudden event for my mother and I as well as everyone that knew my father. He had been recovering well from gallbladder surgery from a couple of years ago. He was diagnosed with a weak heart at the same time but he had been recovering. On the day of his death, my Dad was still doing his normal routines and many people say there did not seem to be anything different that day. Though it saddens me that my father is no longer with us, I do know that my father did everything he could to make sure that my mother and I were well taken care of.

The following is a post I had made on Facebook. My Dad had done a lot before he passed away and they can't be all coincidences. I think my dad knew that his time was near and that he needed to try to set everything up for us before he passed away. My Dad was always a giving person and I know that he is still watching us right now.

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I feel the need to write to calm my heart and to make me feel a little less sad. I think by writing I can fully express myself a little more and help the process along. I know this subject in itself is a sad one but there have been many things that my Dad did before he passed away that has led my mom and I to believe he knew it was his time. Let us look at some of these things. You may call them coincidences, but I would like to believe it was my Dad being the caring individual that he is and trying to take care of us as much as he could before God called him.

- On Wednesday, my Dad mowed the lawn, trimmed everything
- On Wednesday, my Dad did all of the laundry, which was more than 4 loads worth
- On Wednesday night, my Dad told me how proud of me he was and to take care of my mother
- On Thursday, my Dad had called his sister which is a rare thing because it's almost always my Dad's sister contacting him
- On Thursday, my Dad went to the grocery store and completely restocked all of our groceries
- On Sunday, when my mom and I were trying to find certain documents, we went through each and every briefcase that my Dad had. Each were closed but the combination was already set and each was easy to open.
- Over the past couple of months, my Dad tried to get both my mom and I to drive his car and get used to the feel of it. He has never done this for any other car he has had.
- All the bills had been paid for this month. The deadline for most of the bills is later in this month.

I would be lying if I didn't truly believe these things were done by my dad because he felt that his time was coming. There are too many coincidences for this not to be true, you can think otherwise though.

That Thursday night, I couldn't sleep very well. I was very restless. I have a feeling the reason was my father's death. But I didn't hear about it until Friday morning when my Rector told me to call my mother. It was because of bad cell phone reception. I also had the strangest feeling that I needed to talk with my Dad but I never got the chance because I was very busy that day.

Can we truly feel when something isn't right even if it's a couple of thousands of miles away? I think you can. I believe.

RIP Dad. 12/4/08